Found the title bar settings =)

I wonder why they did not fit a title section for this blog template. I miss putting up a title. But I like this template very much. So how do you weigh which is more important.

Life is all about choices, the choices you make and the choices you forego. How will you ever know which is the right one? And if whatever you forego is really something you should have, or not? I lived in these choices many times, and sometimes these thoughts haunt me. But every since a few years back, I dont feel that any more. I dont find myself, questioning myself "What if I did this instead of..." .

The bible puts these things in a very universal perspective. "All things work for the good of those who love Him". Simple versese like these make me think a million times what it really sum up to. Which if you put it down to lay man's term, it could simply mean, no matter you go left or right, you will still end of to where your Father wants you to go. (I am just thinking, maybe one road will be longer as compared to the other).

Anyway, I dont get myself stuck in that though anymore. I come to accept that even with this lost of primary income, I guess these things work for the good of those who love Him. Thanks Abba. For these that have to happen that I may grow to know you more.

12.43 AM. I sit here wondering if this blog is read by anyone. If not, then is a good thought. The thing about the Internet is that people (like me) and talk crap and remain anonymous about it.

It is one of those time that I lost my income... again... due to dot com bubble burst. I must say, these are again, critical times of life, where I need to spend more time praying rather and reading the bible. haha... how I miss the mark sometimes to remain thankful for His providence and consistently going back to him to seek greater things.

My gf always said that I am this arrogant person who doesn't want to rely on God on anything and everything. I used to think so too. But I changed. I can't say I am totally not what she said I am, but I think the degree is much less now. I am back in where I was, but this time, I dont worry that much. As I ask myself, what do I have today that I did not receive from God. Nothing , all is from Him. That I may not boost about anything...

So now, I lost my primary income. But thank God, there is something coming from my secondary income. Been doing some small websites thanfully. And how sometimes I wonder that God prepare us for these things to come. I never really went and sell myself to get some websites jobs like this. As always , clients or prospects call up. Never know where they got my phone number from as well.

And third income from hosting? That is pretty minimum. It is yet to break even. Hmmm.. and forth income from a program I joined not long... ST. Well, at least these are still some good buffer to think what to do next.

I guess one of my biggest mistakes in life, is that I never stop and ask God what He thinks about it and tell me what I should be doing next. I love that feeling. I recall doing that when I was in my secondary school. There were times I did not finish studying for my exams. I must admit, I am not the most hardwarking in class either. But thank God that as I learned to submit to Him for direction, He gives me more inspirations in exams.

So now is back to the basics. Remove the schedule, remove the conflicts with my gf , remove the expectations from her parents, remove the pressure of needing to pay for bills, remove the pressure from head hunters to go for interviews, remove the compulsion to just click "Apply Online" on every job site that I come to see, remove the fear of wanting to apply and update my resume when I come to these job sites, remove the pressure from datelines of website project, remove the sadness that so hinder prayer life, remove the slothfulness to commit to God in prayer and petition....hmmm what's left now ?

I guess what is left now, should be pure and holy heart to commit myself to a decent time of reflection, prayer and hearing from the Lord, and reading of His word as well.

Thank you Abba, for the privileged to be called your childern.
Amen

Praise be to God, my brother found a job. He is currently working as an IT Manager. Many challenges lies ahead for him, but God is good, all the time. And all the time , God is good!

Got to say, he has jumped two step in his career. He is now more of management, sales and kind of enterprising as well.

Joshua

Today, not many people is in the office. I wonder where they are . Everyone seems to have an agenda of their own, those who are not in the office.

I started out IvoxLAB with John, then IvoxONE and now IVOXInside. Things are not moving very fast. I dont suppose I can do much about it as my time is really limited. To some extent, it has become exhaustive. Every single day, not able to make things go, creates the kind of frustration that motivates me to give up rather than go on.

IvoxONE is created to allow customer to find all they want and need from us. All from ONE place. IVOXInside was an never an idea, it was rather a physical server I needed in another datacenter to ensure I can provide the best uptime and services possible. Server down time was not an option for web hosting business. To ensure continuous availability, another server is another datacenter was need.

I picked One Wilshire in Los Angelas, because the server provider , the management never failed to impress me with their speed and performance. So now I have their services.

Then again, at present all these servers are liability rather than income. I must make them into income real soon. A residual income.